sometimes, a person really need a break. especially when he/she face the most difficult decision in his/her life... haiz~dunno how 2 explain also. my heart feel stress n hard..even begin emo d! omg~ now i m still doubt about my decision, is it really right or wrong? how 2 determine whather it is right or wrong? i been called as a coward in my own blog.who is the person call me that is now important, but is the issue... i know i m coward,but sometimes i really cant do it jor...'keep protecting urself by saying u r trying ur best d!' wat a good excuse!' after seeing this comment, i been thinking myself....it is really true? m i taking this as an excuses all the time? m i? honestly...i really treat her very bad. i know... but i still blaming her for wat she did. wat human m i? even wanna break up also dont hav the dare 2 say...thats y i m a coward. she still appear in my mind. dont know y...everything i seen, will make me remember of her. the brand of face wash that she always used, her birthday date, the favourite food that she likes.... all of them pop up one by one day by day... silENCE will take over my emotion. very sorry 4 not letting those bro who r caring abt me to know abt this blog...although i m having a new life, at the same time i m also having a tough life... i feel terrible man...seeing a lot of couple walking on the road, my heart feel unconfertable... celine is jus a fren of mine. i admit... at the beginning i said i wanna woo her. but now, the feeling r changed. c the photo ,keep remind me that 'can i let my girl be as happy, and smile as she did? i think i cannot. too difficult to me... i keeping encourage my frens to think positively, but i m the only 1 who always thinking at the bad side.i dunno... sis told me b4, when ppl having compliment 2 u, u wont remember. but when ppl talking the shortcoming abt u, u will take it to ur heart. i dunno... i think i really need a good rest. sorry 4 doing all those things to hurt u... i m really sorry... wish the next person will give u happiness...
